Release

Draw up these dusty black curtains
Pass the stuffy entrance
see me clawing my way out of nets 

with my eyes clinging to my heart and my head clinging to my feet

Walk towards me,
Smile at me.
Unbolt my brain and dunk it into a glass of lime
let all sourness dissolve
Become the sun, and evaporate all salt from my wounds,
Be a hummingbird, and pass me something sweet.
Use your eyes, to sedate my eyes.

Your heart to decelerate my heart

these ever-chasing, never-ending ever- racing, panic paranoid pulses

I am running recklessly through a pessimist’s forest.

Be the caring hunter and rescue me from the suspended brambles.

I want to be in a blue room, that makes me calm

With a fan, that keeps me cool.
                            Standing next to a window, upright,
                                 basking in the frayed sunlight
                                    loosely clinging to your lips of gold


Blunt thorns are blushing in my head

Hidden by hysterical flowers and conventional horizons

The confident sun smiles into my eyes, 

The air becomes addictive with happiness.
    and I am bashful and blinking amongst crackling streets and refreshing spheres 

and letting my mind fly and buzz around, like an itchy butterfly

and coating my head with honey, soft, drizzling honey making me warm and giddy.
 and spiraling around and around not caring if I’m too fast or too slow

or where it takes me.
smiling and hurting and smiling and hurting
and doing not thinking. and feeling and not contemplating.
     There is blunder, there is mess there is trouble but no more stress

There is laughter bouncing up and down

 and laughter creeping  on to stubborn surfaces

laughter creeping through the sadness 

and then she runs and rushes up and down the staircases of my mind, 
 with no control or care
 she trips
but jumps up and runs off into simmering, jittering

happiness.